October 30, 2007
I have been told that my expressionless face looks stern or angry and I will confess: I don't spend a whole lot of time sitting around grinning like a buffoon.
But some people seem to think that if you don't have a smile on your face, then something is wrong. They also feel like they should do something to correct that something wrong even if they don't know what it is. AND they seem to feel like a smile is all it will take to make all those wrongs rights.
But what if something were wrong. It is inappropriate for someone to start trying to mind my business when I am giving every appearance of doing it myself.
I'm also a big believer in showing the facial expression that corresponds with my emotional state. (I make minor exceptions for niceties like greetings and what not. hmmm... I'm thinking now of my career as a French concierge.)
It offends me and angers me to have someone tell me to smile. Such petty tyranny! That I should grace someone else's presence with a smile as if my expressionless visage or even a frown or scowl is such a burden on their life.
So, if I weren't in a bad mood before, just telling me to smile is a good way to get me there.
October 26, 2007
I haven't been able to find any reasonably priced flights to Georgia so that I can be there for the services and celebration (a celebration of her life) today. It looks like bereavement discounts are offered to family and the less popular airports weren't much help, either.
It may be just as well. One of my good friends' father passed a way a couple of years ago and it was a really hard for her, but she said the hardest time wasn't the time right after when the funeral was being planned and performed. She said the hardest time for her was a couple months after when the cards and flowers have stopped and everyone else seems to have moved on. That was the time when she found herself suddenly confronted with the absence and loss of her father. That's when it hurt the most.
It's eerie and strange to see her smiling at me over the internet.
I've seen people commenting on how the internet seems to keep people alive even after they're gone, particularly if they're a blogger.
Jessie was a blogger and when I read her blog, I imagine I can hear her voice as she goes on a tear about Paris Hilton, home schooling, or immigration here in the US. She used to curse a lot and then curse herself for cursing. It was funny.
I loved visiting the Peacock's house. I liked standing around the fire when the air turned crisp and playing with the boys in the yard. Jessie would make sure we had plenty to drink and eat and plenty of conversation and laughs. I received many invitations to come over, cook out, drink beer, and hang out with the family and their neighbors and it was always so much fun.
Jessie taught me a lot of words in Dutch and even a few in German.
So, even though I can't be there with them today at the funeral and at the party they're having afterward, I will spend a large portion of today
remembering all those happy times. And as soon as I can manage it, I am going to take a trip to Georgia and see if I can spend a little time with Jim and the boys, during that time when I'm told the sense of loss is greatest, just to remind them that they are in my mind and my heart.
I wish them as much happiness as is possible now and for the rest of their lives.
October 24, 2007
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Found at Rational Jenn's place.
October 23, 2007
It breaks my heart, but it looks like I will not be able to be there with my friends during their time of need.
The weather in New York is starting to match my mood.
October 22, 2007
I came home the other night and my roommate was there cooking dinner for some dude who was there. And I was all chattin' and stuff and the guy was pretty cool. He was very funny and nice and I was like, "What a nice and funny fellow he is. I wonder if my roommate likes him."
And so we three hung out and then the guy had to go home and we said bye and stuff. And my roommate and I chatted for a little bit longer and then went to bed.
My roommate was cooking dinner for a guy. Of course he likes him! And I totally just crashed their date or whatever.
I'm a total moron. I hope he isn't pissed because I'm such a dork.
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You are the sort of person that likes to listen to lyrics rather that the actual tune though you like your music to have a rythem that you enjoy too.
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I am deeply saddened by this loss and my heart goes out to Jim and the boys.
Blogging at the end of the week may become scarce as I attempt a trip to Georgia for the ceremony.
October 19, 2007
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Your Result: Obsessive-Compulsive Bookworm
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The description isn't really accurate of me. I think my score is based on the fact that I do carry a book to read with me almost everywhere I go. While in Chicago, I had to go to a bookstore in the airport to buy another book because I was scared I was going to finish my other book, which I did, and not have anything to read on the plane.
Also, my to-read pile is QUITE high.
Link Lurve to Rational Jenn where I saw the quiz before I left for Chicago.
I noticed Diana posted her results, too and it reminded me that I hadn't posted mine.
October 12, 2007
Over the past couple of weeks, though, I've been staying up really late (after 11 is late to me and after 11:30 is really late) which means I haven't been able to wake up in the morning.
But I was tired yesterday and then I had a good workout with my trainer after work. By the time I got home, I watched a couple of shows and then just crashed.
It was great! And this morning I woke up at my regular time again. If I can keep it up, I will start running in the morning again. Woohoo!
October 03, 2007
It's really strange to me because it's not like the toilet paper roll holder thing is all that hard to work. And it's not like you have anything else really pressing to do when you're sitting there. And further, leaving the new roll on the back of the toilet requires twisting around in an awkward position to retrieve it when you need it.
It seems like any sensible person would just replace the roll.
I've done it a few times, but since I noticed it was always this way, I stopped doing it. I'm not home most of the time, so it doesn't really affect my life with much frequency.
I just find their unwillingness or indifference to replacing the roll somewhat perplexing.
October 01, 2007
My best friend is convinced that she wasn't being completely honest when she said this; he prefers to believe that she chooses to sleep only a couple of hours a night because she is an incredibly driven and productive individual. There is some reason to think that may be the case as she has said in past interviews that she doesn't like to sleep because there is so much to do. At the same time, she's also stated in other interviews that when she can't sleep at night she gets up and irons her linens.
When I can't sleep, as I can't tonight, I usually watch a lot of television. I rarely do anything productive. I should perhaps give some thought to changing that because usually when I can't sleep it's because my mind is racing.
The problem with a racing mind apart from the fact that it keeps me from sleeping is that it is really difficult to focus. My thoughts are scattered across the surface of my mind that so much spilled sugar on the kitchen floor. Hard to make a cake like that.
I think one of the reasons that I don't just get up and do something productive is because it's hard for me to just give in to the idea that I really just can't fall asleep. I'm usually good at falling asleep. I think that if I were to launch into some project, it would really just keep me from getting down to the business of falling asleep. I don't know that spending more time trying to sleep actually results in falling to sleep faster than doing something until one feels calm and tired.
Well, I just have this episode of Doctor Who to watch and then my DVR is pretty much empty. I may have to then actually resort to forcing myself to go to sleep by remaining still and quiet and meditating until I doze off. I don't like doing that, though.
OK. Doctor Who is halfway done. Gonna go watch it and then make myself sleep.
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